Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Patience is a virtue I do not posses.

Mister and I really were trying hard to conceive this month. I have really been feeling pregnant. For a week or so my breasts were very tender when peanut was nursing. Then that stopped. My nose has been very keen in the past week or so. I've been a bit emotional. Tiny bits of nausea, and heart burn.

My cycles has been approximately 30 days. My period is due to arrive this Sunday. I want to know NOW. So, I take the babies and walk to the store just to look at the tests. I see one on sale that says early results! 6 days before missed cycle. I buy it. I take the babies to the park, and all the while I just want to go home and pee on the stick. Finally it's time to go home and I really have to pee. This is good.

We get home. I pee on said stick. I replace cap. I lay stick down. I wait. I look.

I get disappointed. I might still be pregnant, but it's unlikely. This is only the second month of TTC, but it was so easy with peanut. My SIL, a friend of mine, and I all had babies less than a year apart. All girls. Peanut is the oldest. Both the other moms are pregnant again. I guess this time it will be in reverse order. (the last of us to give birth, was the first pregnant)
Honestly, I feel jealous. I want to be pregnant, too! I LOVED being pregnant, and am really looking forward to it in a whole new way. I know so much more, am so much better informed.

So many things are running through my head. Am I going to be able to get pregnant? Does this have something to do with the mirena I had for a year? But on the other hand, it's only been a couple months. It will happen when the time is right. I should just continue to work on myself. My health, my family, hammering away at our debt.

And I can always retest on Sunday or Monday.

Care to share you story of fertility woes. no matter how big or's always nice yo know you aren't alone, right?

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